Love Actually

What is love? Is it really something you truly feel, an emotion that just passes the time with the person your with. When do you truly know you love someone. There is a difference between being in love and loving someone. Are you willing to give up everything for that person? Do you compromise yourself for that person? It is a one sided lane? To many things to think about, but I have thought about them a lot in the last few weeks. I don't know if I have ever been in love, true deep love. I have loved people and I have had deep intense feelings for people, but to love someone so whole heartily that I would give anything for them, I don't think I have experienced that yet.
I believe that there is one person out there for you, waiting somewhere in this big crazy world, and maybe I'll know it when I see it, but I have never experienced Love actually. This is kinda a sad thing at my age. I have thought I have been in love, true love, but then I realized that love doesn't make you hurt in certain ways. After the relationship ends I look at things objectively and know in my heart it was not true love. There is that song "Love Hurts" which can be true for some that are naive. How can you love someone who inflicts pain on your heart, plays with your emotions and screws with your mind. Some people do, and they put up with a lot of crap form their significant other. Is that Love? Maybe, I don't know I have never experienced it.
Sure I have put up with a lot of crap particularly from one ex of mine, but I was never in love with him, and I told him, he moved out soon after..... After being in so many relationships I have to put in my 2 cents. I have been out there, it's not like I have been single my whole life, in fact at this time this is the longest I have ever been single. But I have learned a lot about myself in that time. I know what I want and am not willing to settle for anything less as I did in the past. When I find love I want it to be forever and not just some convenience that is taking up both our times.
So speaking in love terms I don't know that much, I just hope that when it happens I will know it and appreciate it and not take it for granted as so many do.
xoxo