Thursday, February 26, 2009

Entitlement

I have posted a couple of very irate blogs in the last few weeks, there has been some hard core drama going on at work, which unfortunately I happen to be right smack in the middle of. I am not going to name names, those of you who really know what is going on know the truth. But my question is, if the drama that is happening is not work related why should it be brought into the workplace? It should not, period, end of story. Awe but that is not the case in this story. My boss and I had a one on one this morning and he brought up the fact that I was involved in some personal problems at work..... OK I KNOW WHO!!!!!!! Why this was escalated to my manager level is beyond me, but it was and I had to tell my boss everything. For those of you who don't know I am an executive asst. to the Chief Credit Officer of the SBLC. Trust me I did not want to involve him, but because of this persons actions I was forced to tell the tale (which had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with work!) So here I am in a conference room trying to not let the tears start to flow and explaining to him a situation that did not need to come to this level. This person said things that could jepordize my job, how this person knew is beyond me. I sure as hell would never say anything about what goes on behind closed doors. I love my job way to much!
So my second question is this, what gives the right to someone to bring up information to slander the other, is this a sense of entitlement? Do they feel that they can just go around and ruin people's lives? For retaliation maybe? Even after I stuck up to her in regards to the information that I was involved in, and it did not really end on a good note, she proceeded to tell me what I said and that basically I was lying, hell she almost had me convinced I was lying. But I stood my ground, because I know what I said and I know what I did not say. Well she did not like that to much and eventually it came to this, going to my boss about a problem that did not need to be brought into the workplace. It has gotten way out of hand..... And I am scared. Am I going to loose my job because of some crazy bullshit that this person said? She literally put a question in all my managers mind about my trust. What gives people this right? What makes them decide... "oh by the way I am going to ruin your life today". I just don't get it. Can someone please explain this to me? What fucking sense of entitlement does that give you? YOU FUCKING BITCH! Are you really happy with yourself.... most likely you are because you think you are going to get your way this time.... Not this time honey I will fight this with all my heart and no matter what I have to do to get my managers trust back I will do it. I am not bowing down to you and your selfish, childish ways. You can literally GO TO HE:LL! If you ever have an inkling that our friendship might be one day, think again.I will NEVER be your friend again, I don't even want to act civil to you at work. I want to fucking punch you and ask what the hell gives you this right..... But I am not going to stoop to your level. I am going to be an adult about this and I am going to move on. This is going to get ugly in the next few weeks and I don't know the outcome, but I will say this again, I will fight for my job, my integrity and I will earn the trust back of my team. You can do whatever you want to make yourself feel better, go right ahead. You watch and see one day this is going to come back to you, one day you are going to tell one to many lies and IT WILL come back to you. You tell so many lies now you don't even know what the truth is. So good luck with everything in your life, good luck, because one day you will be alone and I won't.

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