What to Do

My ex is coming to town this weekend, and I am not entirely sure how I feel about that. Two things could potentially happen..... I am going to punch him in the face or I am going to give it to his charm. What to do..... I have the determination to let it be, but I am afraid that if I see him the feelings will coming flooding back at a unbelievable rate. We have plans to go to dinner and I want to keep it at that, no more. I have agreed to MEET him somewhere and then decide. What will I do. Only time will tell. I have come so far in getting over him and I am so mad that he has taken the trips to see everyone else, but me. If he really wanted to see me he could have... for goodness sakes it has been 3 months and he has made every effort to see his other friends, so I am a little pissed. What about me I want to scream, what about the promises he made to me? What about them???? out the window that what is going on. So only time will tell. Please give me the strength to say what I have to say, please give me the strength to walk away. Let me be strong for once in my life, let me go in the direction that I was meant to go. Time has started to heal my heart and I want to keep it that way. I want to continue to heal, I want to continue to be strong. So much in my life is going so well, and I do not need a distraction that will disturb that good vibe that is flowing through me. All is ask is for the courage to stand for my convictions to stand up to what is right, at least for me I leave you hanging. This is a test of what is to come, a test to see if I can stand up for myself. Please let me do the right thing for me. More to come and we shall see.

Much love,

XOXO