So I saw my ex, and it was not what I expected. The wrath cam out and feeling diminished. I saw him in a new light, a light that said NO!. We are not what we once were and things have changes. I no longer felt the the chemistry that was once there, but for a moment wanted to sleep with him once last time. It did not happen which is good. We are going in different directions we have our lives to live and unfortunately he is not willing to wait, even though he pushed me in the direction that needed the push. Is that fair? I don't know. We are two different people and I will never be good enough for him. The realization came last night, the realization of reality. A star to be wished upon but that wish will never come true. Once again my heart has been broken, my feelings left to shambles. I will over some, it may just take some time. I write what I feel because there is no other outlet. My feelings are left on the table and one day, someday soon, I will pick up the pieces and move on. My heart will heal, my soul will be one. I wish him the bet, but hope he feels the pain that I do. Somehow I doubt that. Life will go on and so will I. But in the realm of things my heart is at a loss.
Much Love,
xoxo
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