A Beautiful Kind Of Silent.

So despite the events of the past week and feeling so emotional all week, the end of my week ended beautifully.
The boy, knowing how bad I was feeling this week decided what I needed was a night away, so we went up to Seattle. Now I understand it may be hard to understand me, I can be very emotional and shut off sometimes especially when I am dealing with emotional stress. For so long it was so much easier to deal by myself then to say I need help. The school shootings this week brought back many bad memories, feelings and a sadness I haven't felt in a long time. There were a few moments this last week when I just broke down.
I have been working very hard at communicating my feelings, especially with the boy. You can not build a relationship without communication right? So knowing how sad I was feeling, he was completely understanding. We didn't talk much about the sadness, but that's not what I needed. I needed him to be there. And he was. He understands that I will talk about things when I am ready, and he knew why I was feeling like this. The best thing about this weekend was, he was there. When I didn't feel like talking he just held me and let me be silent.
I am starting to feel comfort with him, it's ok to be silent, and there is no awkwardnesses. When I fall asleep next to him, his breathing puts me at ease.
Getting away this weekend, was just what I needed, a weekend to not think about all that is wrong in this world. There is no-one that I would have wanted to spend it with, and there are no words that I can say to him to let him know how much i appreciate him. For letting me be sad, and making me happy all at once.

So yes Seattle was great. There is something about that city that brings so much out. For me that is he where he first said the words that made me think of our future, where he brought me again, so I would forget about all that is wrong.
So yes, Seattle has a magic.