I must start this off with how grateful I am for the things that have come into my life in the past year. I have never been this happy as far as I can remember. A lot of people ask me what has changed. Well so much has changed. I have finally come to the realization that I am who I am, and god gave me a purpose in life. I am learning from my mistakes and believe me there have been quite a few. I lost a great relationship over my selfishness and my immaturity. I can't take all the blame, it takes two, but a lot of regret lays on my shoulder. I have learned to move past that and accept me for who I am. I am not perfect but I am proud of my accomplishments in my life in the last year.
Nothing can change the past, but I can not let it dictate who I am today. That was the hardest lesson I have learned. I have to accept the fact that I have a disease that will be with me for the rest of my life, and with that being said I can not let that dictate my life either. I am proud to stand for my convictions and will live the life I was meant to live. Someday, I will find that special person who can share that part of my life. In essence that is the only thing I am missing from my life today, but I have to believe that one day I will find that someone who will accept me, no questions asked.
So with the start of the new year I promise myself that I will work hard on the things that matter to me, there is a lot to be said for the interpersonal self. You can not love another until you love yourself.
Happy New year!
xoxo
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