Sometimes we feel that we need to take the easy road, it just somehow seems simpler. We hope and we pray that tomorrow will bring a new day turn over a new leaf, turn your life around. Then it gets too hard and one day turns into weeks, then into months, and we find ourselves addicted. We can't get out of it, the alcohol, and the drugs become an escape from reality. The foreclosure on the house, the death of a spouse, turning off your phone, having your family and friends turn away from you. The only reality is getting high, getting drunk and at least for a while all the pain goes away. Then you wake up and it all comes crashing down, and you start the cycle all over again.
Your selfish, thinking your the only one in pain, you forget about the one's that care, we all lost some one that we loved, someone close to our hearts. You are too high to even notice that the people around you exist. You forget that they love and care about you. The feeling of getting high takes away all the pain, it makes you forget, you wake up everyday doing the same thing, downing the liquor, taking the pills.... forgetting, forgetting.
Life just got too hard dammit, at least that is your excuse, life isn't worth living at least that is what you tell yourself. Did you forget about the ones that care? The ones that love you? Could you honestly be so god damn selfish that you can't even think about your kids, your brother, your grandchild, your friends?
What in life made you choose this path and why can't you see the pain we are all in because of you? You who used to be my Aunt, you who helped raise me, you who were there through every cut, every pain, heartache and thrill. Where did you go? What happened to you?
I know this seems like it is the easy way out, I know it's seems to solve all of your problems, at least for the time being. I know it's easier to take a drink or pop a pill to make it go away, trust me I know. I also know that there are people who care, just like people care about you.
But doing this, wasting away, taking your life before it's your time, living for the dead, not seeing the present, wasting your days drinking, slowing, slowing wasting away. Your body so frail and thin, your eyes so void of reality, your touch, the touch of a skeleton, you exist, but your are not living. I know it's hard I know your in pain, but this is not the way to solve it, this is not the way to happiness, if you shall ever see the day. The way you are going now, that day will never come.
I want the person I had some much love for back, I want the person who I grew up with. The memories, the good times. Yes it is true we lost someone we love and it will never be the same, but we all lost him, we are all hurting. Not just you. Sometimes I think about my uncle and remember him the way he was, always taking care of us, always watching out, that is the way I want to remember him, that is the way I still see him.
Don't you think he is watching down on you now? Do you really think he would want this of you? What about Grandma, do you think she would want her only daughter to go out like this? What about your children, your grandchild. What about them? WHAT ABOUT THEM?
We all go through hard times and each of us deal with it in different ways, but you choose to waste away, all for something, something you can never get back if your not sober enough to see the truth.
Drinking and drugs are not the answer, they will ruin you, they are ruining you. This is the easy way out, the easy way to cope, the easy way to forget about the truth, but the truth will be there when you sober up, it will be there when you finally realize that's it's not all about you. We have lost someone we loved very dearly, please don't let us loose someone else we love. You have so much to live for. you have so much in life that is still out there waiting, please don't give that up for a bottle of liquor and a bottle of pills.
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