Memorial Day

On this day let's all take the time out to say thank you! Thank you to those who are over seas, fighting for our freedom.
Now we may not all agree on why we are over there or if it's right or wrong. But we do have our troops over there fighting for us. So this weekend as we are having our bar-b-ques, playing golf, or enjoying the day.
Take a Minute, just one minute to say thank you, and maybe a little prayer. Remember over there fighting is someone's brother, son, daughter, wife, husband, Over there is someone that somebody loves.
Pray for their safe return, pray for their dedication, pray for their families.
I am saying thank you! THANK YOU! Happy Memorial Day!

Well my last post seemed a but depressing. Sorry, sometimes I am just not in the zone. However I am picking myself up again, and feeling much better. I have updated my other blog http://outoflifeoutofmind.blogspot.com/ quite a bit lately.
I have been in what you may call MY ZONE.. Sometimes all I want to do is write, write, write.
Not only that but I have had a lot of other things going on. I did the heart walk this last weekend with my dad who suffered a heart attack a little over two years ago, and I have been on a major hiking frenzy. Since the weather has become warmer I have been out enjoying the beautiful days.
So yes, things have been a little tangled, but things are also positive. I just have to remember the sadness will pass, and there is always that next beautiful adventure out there just waiting to be conquered!
I am just checking in, even if no one is reading, I feel better just getting it out!
Everyone have a FAB week!

Just checking in

Hi,
I know it been a little touch and go here on this blog.
Things have been a little tangled to say the least. If you have read my previous posts, you know I suffer from bi-polar disorder, and lately I have been in a not so good place.
I hate it when life gets complicated and people have a hard time understanding me for me. I try so very hard to let things go and not get so emotional.
Some day's I am on top of the world, while others, I can't even bring myself to get out of bed.
My therapist is wonderful, and I am on all the meds, but it's still hard to overcome me. I wonder everyday, why I have to suffer this, and some days I pray to let it all end.
However, I know that is not the answer. I am a special person, one of a kind. Yes it takes me longer to let people in, to trust, but that is just me.
Someday I will get control over my life. I know I am taking steps in the right direction, it's just gonna take me a minute to get there.
When I get there I will blow the world away.
There is a part of me just waiting to be discovered.

My Sunday

Awe the weekend has once again come to a close, and as much as I like to sit around and do nothing (mostly trying to recover from the past week, or to psych myself up for the week to come)It is getting warmer, and I absolutely can not sit and do nothing!

The rain let up and I loaded up my hiking gear and I was off. The day was to nice to pass up. I have been itching to go hiking for a while now, and every time I have planned on going, yes it started to rain. So when I looked outside and saw the beautiful sun, I did not hesitate to get out there.

All I can say is, I am so glad that I did. We have some of the most beautiful trails up here in the northwest, and I am always taken with the beauty that stands in front of me everyday. Today my mission was simple. I was going to conquer the waterfalls!



The beauty was breathtaking. As I hiked and explored I felt a peace that I only feel when I am hiking.



So today I would like to share a few of the beautiful things I was fortunate enough to see I hope you enjoy.










Do I really have to go back to work?

And your Priorities are Where?

When do you say enough is enough? Move on, Throw in the towel, Get you priorities in order NOW! With that in mind, I have had a friend going through a pretty tough time recently. The news he received this week, is pretty major and completely unexpected. You might say, well, this will change his life.

First a little back round.....

We dated a long time ago, and since have become very good friends. He is a doll, his looks could kill and he has a kick-ass personality to go along with that beautiful face. After we had stopped dating, he met someone he fell hard for, and I mean hard. They only dated for three months, and still he can not get over her. (keep in mind the breakup happened almost 10 months ago) Now I understand that getting your heart broken can be hard, trust me when my five year relationship ended, I never thought I would get over it. However hard it was I knew that there is life after a failed relationship. So anyways, I have been trying to help him see that there are other girls out there for him, I advised him he doesn't have to get serious, but having a little fun can be good for the bruised heart.
This went on for a while, and I was beginning to worry, he continuously mentioned her. "Should I call her?", "Do you think I should stop by her work?" Well my advise was no. Let me explain, he sent her roses, and she became very upset, changed her number & blocked him off of her myspace. So I think that was a pretty good indicator that he was achieving stocker status in her eyes. I hate to see him hurt, but at the same time he is hurting more by holding on to someone who has no love back.
The hardest thing for me to understand about this is, he is so good looking, and such a sweet person. But I also understand it can take time to heal a broken heart.

Moving forward to a few weeks ago, we were working out and he tells me he has a date! I was so excited, finally he was taking that step to moving forward. He was also thinking about moving back to Arizona, which is also awesome, because I know he loves it there. So the conversation was good upbeat, happy even. He told me that he was moving on, he didn't need her anymore..... What a relief!

So this week, I get several texts and missed calls from him.... I call back thinking, O my gosh I hope he is OK. So he tells me he has news that will effect his relationship with the girl, (ok I am thinking HHHMMM I thought we had moved on) So he is beating around the bush, and I had to practically beat it out of him... Finally, he tells me, the girl I had a date with is pregnant.... WHAT? WHAT? I said..... Did you not use protection? "Well he tells me, She said she couldn't get pregnant". I was in shock, 3 times, yes 3 times they went out, and now he is tied to her forever...


Well he is pretty calm about the situation, and I am panicking more than him. I mean this is a big deal, and I can not understand how he can be so poised. He is more worried about how the girl will feel about this, Yes the girl he has not spoken to in almost 10 months! WHAT, I mean WHAT????? This is something that will forever change your life, and not to mention, you hardly know the girl who is going to be your baby's momma!

So this week, we talk again, I am concerned about how he is doing. Once again he is a mess. Instantly I am thinking that it has to do with the baby, and the girl.... Wrong, wrong again. He saw on someone's myspace, that the girl called him a stalker... Well are you really surprised? I mean really where the hell are your priorities? He is one of my good friends, but I just don't understand his way of thinking. It makes no sense! He was just given news that will change his life forever, and he is more worried about a girl he doesn't even talk to anymore.

Well I have no idea how to be there for him anymore. I have tried to help him move on, and tried to be as gentle as possible, but how much is enough? I am dumbfounded, there is no other way to describe it.

Well this is me venting, hit me up with any advice. PLEASE!

Happy May Day!

The first day of May always brings so much promise of the summer that is just around the corner. Finally the flowers are blooming, the tree's are budding, and the days are getting longer and warmer. AWE..

Last night as I was browsing blogs I came across a challenge for May, it called the Every Day in May. My everyday in May will be to write, and do some photography that I have been putting off. I will update my blog either on this site or My other site Outoflifeoutofmind. The challenge here is to do something you love, even if it's not your best work, give it a go. What will your Everyday in May be?

I encourage you to join me :)

Happy May Day!