Take 2 Apples and Call me in the Morning

For many of you who don't know I have one allergy and that would be apples. Weird I know, not peanuts, not fish, nothing else..... Just apples. You would be surprised at how many foods and fruit drinks have apples in them. You wouldn't think that because there is no advertisement about it, but many concentrates and smoothies have apple juice in them. So needless to say I always have to ask. I found out that by not asking it could get me in trouble, I found out the other day and now I'm paying.
The other day I was so hungry I had just got out of training that went to lunch, so it's safe to say that I was starving.... I am eating healthy and wanted something fast, so I go to the restaurant downstairs that sells chicken, rice bowls and things like that. I eat it so fast that I feel sick to my stomach. Well I was hungry what can I say? Anyways, apparently they started cooking their sauces and chicken in assorted fruit juices. There is a sign that specifically states that, but do you think I saw that? NO! So I eat there, later that afternoon my face has little red bumps and I am having a hard time sallowing, I think nothing of it, then Wednesday it gets worse, I literally have to spit out my food because I physically can't sallow. So I think I am coming down with strep throat, the funny thing is I feel OK. Well today I look like I have chicken pocks, all over my cheeks and neck..... Not good, I still can't sallow, but I am feeling fine. So I call my friend Mrs. Google and she tells me I am having an allergic reaction.... OH fricking GREAT! Why didn't I think of that? DUH, Katy..... So yeah one of my favorite places to eat now cooks their food in fruit juices, which unfortunately contains apple juice.... See what I mean. So right now I look like I have chicken pocks and I can't eat and it's Thanksgiving!!!!!! Just my luck! Moral of the story ALWAYS read the signs and NEVER assume that just because it's a food that you would NEVER think apples are in, well guess again....

Friend or Foe?

You meet people in your life that you think are true, genuine people, then you find out differently...... And that just sucks, people who are there for you at their convenience, friends when it's on their time, not yours. They juggle you around, thank you only sometimes, smile to your face, then talk behind your back. Friend or Foe? Then there are those people who think they are looking out for your best interest, but really only care about themselves...... Boss you around, try to control your well being, but really it's all in their game, their thoughts, not in your best interest. There is a difference between being rude and blunt, there is a difference between right and wrong.
Friends should be there to listen, not judge, care, not boss. And if you make a mistake oh well that's how you learn. Friends take time out when you really need them, they check on you when your in trouble and they don't get pissy if for some reason you are having a bad day.
Friendship should be an equal partnership, not a one sided affair. The sad thing is you really don't find out who your true friends are until you need them the most. When you find out that they are just not who you thought they were then distance is the only answer. When you finally come to that realization that the person is not genuine you are most likely already hurt, so put the distance there to cushion your fall.

UUUMMMM YEAH

So today was a great day, feeling good, a little stressed because I fucked around all weekend and didn't finish my video presentation that is due for my final on Tuesday. No problem I will do it tonight...... So I get off work, get to my car and shit I have a flat tire. Why of all days, does it have to be today, when I NEED to get home to finish my final. Well it did. So I had to call roadside assistance wait for like an hour 1/2 and hope that they could just fix my tire. My string of bad luck with things going out has been on a streak lately, first my TV went out and had to spend $500 for a new one, then my CD/DVD player won't open on my PC, now my frickin tire... What a joke :) So the guys FINALLY comes and he asks me for the key to my tires... I am like "what key?" He says "the key that unlocks your rims." I was like "I didn't even know I had a key"...... HHHHMMMM.... Yeah, so another 1/2 hour trying to find that, finally found it in my glove box. So he changes the tire. GREAT! So then I start driving and my alignment is all off. GREAT, just what I need to fuck up my alignment on my car. So I drag my ass to Les Schwab and tell them I need a new tire. So they look at it, and wouldn't you know my lovely dealership uses Les Schwab, soooooooo, not only did they fix it, they fixed it for FREE!!!!! Love it! So I get home and it takes my like 2 hours to do my video presentation because I am so critical of myself, I finally get it done..... What a day... Thank goodness it's over...

Friends

What is considered a friend? Some one who is there when you need them..... Why yes, that is my definition. But what about when it's only convenient for them, is that a true friend? I have gone through many friends in my life and maybe it' me, but I have a hard time trusting, again and again I seemed to get burned..... DO you see a pattern here? I do. Maybe I need to come to the realization that it is me, being to picky, not trusting enough, jumping to conclusions. That's me.... But if your only, no one can hurt but yourself. Isn't that the truth? It has been so long since I have had a good group of friends that I trust.... One of them is in Denver, so it's not like I can exactly go out and talk to her anytime I want. I crave that companionship of a good close girl friend, who I can go out with, cry too and just hang out. Since moving to Portland I have no been able to find that. Sure I have friends but no one that I feel I can completely confide in. O well, like I said maybe it's me. So why don't i get out there and do something about it..... No courage..... sad but true.

XOXO